Enough

I am seriously in need of a vacation. I have such a short temper that it's insane of me to even contemplate keeping my mouth shut. I'm so tired of being treated like a child but expected to act as an adult with my life together. I drive all the way here to see my family and then they don't want to do anything, the kids are misbehaved brats, my aunts are fighting, my family is beyons dysfunctional. "Everyone's family is" that's just a fucking cop out to say "I don't want to listen to your problems" I try to be a good friend and listen but when I need someone to listen everyone either doesn't, they think I'm whining or just talk about themselves more. Once in a damn while I would like the respect I deserve. I'm seriously such an angry person lately and I don't know what to do about it. I need this lease at the Grove gone so I can move on with my life and my dreams. I cannot sit around and watch as others live the life I want. It's time to aim high and go for it. Get in shape, get good grades, and graduate. I think it's all pretty simple to get through. In the grand scheme of things. But in light of how things have gone lately then maybe it'll be a huge feat. It's time to persevere and do what I thought I couldn't. I'm not a quitter and I'm not backing down. I need to remember to breath, find what makes me happy and go for it. Even if I'm on my own. People need to advocate for themselves and start learning to live without me. I'm not leaving, but I have my own life to live. I've already wasted enough of it.