Prince Charming

There are so many things changing in my life and some are great advances. I shouldn't dwell on the small things and I'm trying. It's time to let go of the past, move on, focus on the now and hope for the future.

I lay awake up night and wonder about so much, but lately I've been thinking about a boy, cute, sweet, quirky and amazing. Just the right amount of different for me, and the right amount of things in common. I think about him all the time, and laugh at his goofiness. I can't wait to meet him. It will be so great. But in this thinking process I came up with an idea that shocked me:

I'm my own prince charming. I am romantic, sweet, sappy, and all of that comes from the heart. I'm not fake and manipulative, I just feel with my heart. I've been asked "If you sat next to yourself, would you like you? Would you like the person sitting next to you?" I now have an answer... Most definitely. Not to brag but the things I've done for others in the past, the things I've said, they'd melt my own heart if someone told me that. Or treated me like that. I'm a sap for sad movies, roses, chocolate strawberries and just staying in for a night. I also like to dance, sing too loud, run around the town, party with friends and do the most random things (Usually involving glitter), but I end up with the same 'lil ole me. Now I think that's not such a bad thing. I'm funny, I'm not too hard on the eyes, and I'm real. I don't think those are things people DON'T want. I thought I had to look for love, or at least be ready for it. Now I don't really think I should know what to do. I don't mind, :) I would love love when I'm ready for it, but if I'm not ready then I think I'm okay with me, Prince Charming. The second I find love, I'm holding on as tight as possible. I'm really easy to take care of all I need is complete honesty, love, and conversation. maybe food. But I dream of having someone to lay next to me. I do get lonely from time to time. Everyone does, but it's not unbearable yet. I'll always have myself looking out for me. I won't fail at that, I'm a pretty smart kid and I've gotten myself here. It hasn't been an easy road and God knows I let too many people get second or third or more chances that weren't deserved, but mercy gets the best of me. I can't keep negativity in my mind. It's exhausting.

I'm a mess, I have so many thoughts at once I literally don't understand how people know what I'm saying or doing. I usually have 7 ideas at one time and there's no stopping where they're going. I talk too much, I care too much about my hair, I love the color blue, I like to dress nice more for myself than others, I like conversation, I like a lot of people that aren't liked by others and I'm not normal. I love being different, I was made that way yo accomplish great things others can't. It's a great feeling to be this way, I know that I am unique and I cannot wait to see where I go in life. I have dreams, and no one can stop them, I day dream all the time. It's some of the best moments in my day. The funny thing is, I thought I'd be the one being saved, when the truth is. I'm the knight in shining armor, I'm Prince Charming.