There's one thing in life I have my heart set on, one thing I'll never change my mind on. Marriage, all I want is to find the right guy, fall for him, and be eternally bound to each other. This society doesn't allow for benefits of family without marriage, they don't allow health, car insurance, property, rights to remains. My whole life I've been relationship oriented. I don't like the "hit-it and quit-it" attitude I've experienced since being out. I'm not going to say I haven't had partaken in hook ups, if I denied it that would make me a liar. Every night I go to bed I wonder what it would be like to not sleep alone anymore, to go to bed with ONE man, every night, knowing that they want to be there when I wake up. Not leave when I'm sleeping and exchange awkward smiles or waves later on the next time you see them. I like relationships, I'm not addicted, but relationships put me on a different level. It makes me know a guy is serious. Beauty fades, memories blur, but personality holds true until the end.
I want someone's shining personality, their deepest quirks, and their smartest smarts. Looks aren't all, they help, and I can't force myself to be attracted to someone. But personality wins over looks any day. I'm not the best looking, but I think I have a damn funny personality.
Fun is fun, but when it comes to being serious. The arrow falls short of the target. I'm picky, may have standards above others but I know what I'm looking for. A real guy. Not the delusional party boy.
Once I find mr right, or mr awesome then we'll see where that goes. But years from now, however long. I want one man, forever.
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