I'm terrified of the next four months. I'm excited, scared, tired, nervous, happy, shakey, panicked and anxious. These are some of the biggest changes I'll make in my young adult life. I'm so glad to have the mentors and people in my life that I do. Sometimes I do kind of feel lonely and little boy. Back into those scared little days when I didn't have the past I do now. There are just so many times of waiting, relying on others and the timeline is getting shorter and shorter. My hands are shaking and can actually feel my heart racing. I'm trying to focus on the positives, there are just those few moments that I give myself a reality check and make sure I don't give myself a big head.
There's always a chance and if there is even a split second I can take it, I'm going to. I've finally found a path that I want to take. With people I want to take it with. I'm holding out, waiting for fate to display it's mission. Once the dice have been rolled the answers will be revealed. I can't wait for that. I need to convince myself not to stress, and that what is meant to be will be.
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