I can't worry too much, in hopes that somehow making me worry will solve the problem. Because it doesn't. I'm trying to sort things out and take a breath. It's a new thing for me. haha. But it's already helped.
I had problems falling asleep last night, I missed my guy, I had so much to do, and I was so tired. I was so tired I forgot that I was trying to actually sleep. I finally realized that I can't worry about things when I'm laying down so I started counting my blessings so to speak. I'm in love with the most amazing guy, my family loves me, I'm in school, I have food, shelter... etc and I realized I went into the deepest most restful sleep I've had in a very long time. I'm also happier than I've ever been! :)
I had lunch with Christina and I have some of the most amazing friends and people in my life. No matter how things work out, I'll always be able to take a breath, I can handle anything. I'm strong, I've gotten here, and I will get to an amazing place in life. My stress started to get to me today when I realized that I do it to myself for the wrong reasons. That's why it overwhelms me. So I need to stand up, do what's best for me and for everyone else. Time to grow up a little again. My world is my playground, my office and my adventures. Time to become an explorer :p
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