Proverbial Needle

I had a great night tonight. :) I got to see my Jessi! I had lunch with Christina today and I spent my night with Tino, Mitch and Chuck... and to think I didn't want to go out tonight. I could've spent my night reading or watching charmed but I didn't. I got up and had a great time! Therefore leads me into the night shift and too much free time on my hands. I'm trying to slowly, one-by-one, delete pictures of me or "untag" myself from them... turns out 935 pictures are a lot to go through. More than I anticipated, some old memories seemed to have seeped into my consciousness. I've tried remembering the good times but I'm better off not remembering at all. I wish it would go away. This seems to be a blemish on my past that won't go away. Some day it will fade beyond my knowing, but for now it's caught in this strange abyss. We'll see how things turn out in the end I guess. I've a lot more deleting to do.

On a happy note. One of the best things happened to me. I held a boys hand. It's a small gesture but it makes me feel so happy! It makes me smile a lot even at 4am as I write this. The butterflies in my stomach race and I can't wait to see what comes from the future. It's funny how the smallest of things makes the greatest of differences.