Friends

Well here's a moment when I really need to do the normal "Blogging" thing where I talk about my life and blah blah blah so here goes.

Lately all I do is put on a smile, wear the mask and act out my part. But that's changing. I see my purpose and my place. It's just a transition into the life I'm meant to lead.

So here goes, I miss my family, that includes the family thats not blood. All those out there that never cease to make me feel safe, and loved.

My family is beyond important to me.

I'm going home this weekend but I'm also leaving family behind. I can't believe Leslie, Ruth and I will be apart this weekend. It's weird having the wonder triplets together! I feel like there's a part of my heart that's missing, or empty. She's the ground, the center, the pure, raw intelligence and sincerity of the apartment. Not to mention beyond gorgeous. (See you're in my blog now :))

Ruth is the spontaneous, down to Earth, outgoing, spunky, beautiful little Jew of the place. And she's the ying to my yang. I can't imagine you both not in my life.

And then there's Miles.... "you fucking piece of shit" you're like the little brother that I never had, and you're beyond funny, and smart WAY beyond your years. you need to come join the craziness that is Wyoming.

Kelsey and Lindsay Brinkerhoff.... where to even start with the people that've followed me my whole life. You're both the most wonderfully, outrageous friends a fabulous gay wyomin' boy could ask for, I think of you often and I miss you both so so much.

Justine, man there's not much to say except you're AWESOME!!!! and I tell the mystery of Hellen Keller to everyone. and I need to come see you soon!

Carlee you're such a dork, and hilarious and we need to get you into the tattoo world!!!!!

I miss all of you SO much. and I need to come see you! or you can come see me :).

Kalayla: you're beautiful, funny and the perfect amount of pep that I love to see every time I get a hug. :)

Christine: you always know how to brighten my day! and I miss your face!

Arianne: your cynicism inspires my sarcasm and I love it

all you Chi O's are beyond amazing.

Jessi: you're voice could shatter crystal, and you're a little beautiful pixie! we need to watch Buffy~! haha :)

Here's to my new friends:

Shelby and Steph- you're amazing Pi Phi's and we need to go Clubbing! you're so fun and gorgeous!

Michael- I'm going to kick you in the vag, one day, but you're a good kid and we need to party more! haha you're hilarious you little punk.

Heather: i bought you some hair dye to embrace your awesomeness :) haha, but you rock!

and last but certainly not least...

Rex, I've never found so much in common with a straight man, you have to be the straight version of me. haha. It's ridiculous how awesome you are. And you love Glee so I instantly approve... even if you sang a song from "she who must not be named" ;) haha but really, you're a great guy.

You

The perspective given by inner thought changes everything. It changes, ideas, dreams, and beliefs that have been instilled in you from the moment God created you. There's no gap between what you should know and what you're about to know. Only you, stopping what should be... from being. What needs to come out into the light, to explain who you are, in front of all creation. there's no reason to hide. Unique, beautiful, loveable.... all things that make you... you.

I love people for who they are, I love me for me and you should love you for you.

Bliss

The peace found in the mind,

binds you to your core,

an escape of worlds,

a dream in a dream,

all creation in the palm of your hands,

Going to that one place in your mind that's perfect,

for me,

it's a lake, on a warm day, with a nice little beach and picnic area,

a boat to play in, a boy to love,

and a world with no one bothering it.

Just a day, on a lake.

Worth Fighting For

A feeling I thought I had given up on,

this strange burning, raging, scratching sensation,

Irrational, unexplainable, fearful experience,

it bubbles, seeps over, and floods the mind,

Love is a silly emotion,

and unimagined idea that erases logic,

Defies the laws set down by nature,

and lifts you to the light,

Who could hate a feeling like this?

Especially with someone like this.

The reward is hopefully better than the risk,

This is what I fight for.

Silence

The absence is great, deafening even,

It screams until the droning panes.

Frozen in heaps of black serenity,

Peace in a crushed broken heart.

A lie to ones self,

a dream hidden near.

Nothing breaks through,

but self will and love.

Silence does nothing,

nothing except to eat away at the soul.

Breaking it is liberating,

freeing and complete happiness.

But the long grueling process to follow is one not wished on any individual,

But it's something I wouldn't trade for a lifetime.

Love, passion, and life,

Silence solves nothing.

Speak up, be yourself,

and love like there's no tomorrow.

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I see my best when I'm at my worst,

and notice the small things when I look at the bigger picture.

I can see a ray of light in absolute darkness,

and cast shadows in the most brilliant of light.

I dream when I don't sleep,

and sing when there's only music in my head.

I understand the impossible,

and confuse the possible for not.

Life is a trip beyond the stars,

in your own back yard.

Moments

Life is the unexpected expectation,

no one expects life to work,

they instantly assume that it does and then sit and wait for it to happen.

Yet certain moments sneak up on you,

surprise you,

and shock you out of reality,

moments that still your breathing,

race you heart,

and defy the hold gravity has on you.

Never let these moments fade,

always remember them,

and pray each day,

that you'll get another second,

worth living for.

:)

Love

I'm glad that I have people in my life that God put there,

I love all the friends that are here, and all the friends that I can help. There's nothing better than the love of a great friendship and I can't even imagine my life without certain people. I wouldn't dream of it. Love is love, there's nothing wrong with it and the beauty of life is that there's nothing that can be created out of nothing... except LOVE. Love is infinite, pure and radiant.

There's no judgment in love, nor should there be.

Fall

The smell of a changin season,

air cools to a crisp clean scent,

changing the temperatures to a frosty chill,

Fall is upon us.

Amazing how one smell can open the gate,

to a flood of memories long since repressed,

tortured by ideas of the past,

out from the cold it arises.

A fresh beginning to a new year,

a new story to be written,

over the footprints of the life that haunts before,

a creation of intention.

Self

I'm beginning to fall in love,

with myself not a person,

with my personality,

my resilience,

and my ability to see what others chose not to.

I can be miserable,

sit around and wait for something to happen,

but in the end I'm me,

I live with myself the most,

and I need to love me for me.

Today I do,

I appreciate me,

and the people in my life,

but sitting, thinking and understanding,

is something I'm beginning to hold close to heart.

I don't break too many boundaries,

I level my head enough to keep me sane,

I have fun with whatever situation,

and best of all?
I'm real, I'm me, and I am Brody.

No one can change this,

no one can say I'm not me,

they can't control me,

and I live for no one but who resides in my heart,

the reflection of a reflection cast in a soul of self.

Open

The risk of trying,

the lack of faith,

handing the days,

to unsuspecting liars.

Tricks of deceit,

Mirrors of foes,

Crazy mentions,

of ideas haunting those.

I'm giving up on trying,

I've said it so many times,

I need a new track,

A new song to sing.

Change is what needs to happen